I Need Some Space

I was walking in circles around the house. I felt so confined. Over a few days I had been stirring over some ideas about what would help our family get ready for the Spring season even though we're smack dab in the middle of the Winter. I've got 3 little ones all under the age of five at the moment, so planning is almost like having a superpower. As long as you don't plan to hold on to things, too many things, certain things, un-necessary things.

My plan became, "get rid of everything."

Well this is a start, isn't it?

Is it really logical to believe that if I had less things, I'd feel better? Say, if I were a minimalist. A bookshelf with only 5 items, a desk with only a device, a coaster, a lamp and a notepad. Nothing in my living room but a couch and a clean coffee table. A house plant with a few pictures on the wall... and white walls at that. I feel bored just saying that.

On the flip side though, don't be deceived. Having an abundance of "things" amid your dwelling is absolutely the opposite of boring. But is it really desirable?

You may just get caught up in the simplest of things, substituting effort that's meant for true productivity, for what becomes mundane busy work.

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Shout out to all the SAHM and Nannies and yall out there doing good for the babies of the world; your day by day routine of washing and wiping, chauffer and chef work while holding it down and keeping things up doesn't go unnoticed.

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This is a song called Laundry Flow.

So, the dilemma is that I need things, and space. I need space for things and those things require space. What do I do? Is this just about managing the space I have? I can't get rid of everything. Is what I'm seeing even a tangible space issue or do I just need more room in my brain to think? It's really all of the above isn't it?

I need space to think. I need it to move around and I need it for rest. I need some space but I don't need isolation. The good news is that I'm not going to stop either way. Until I figure out exactly how to make this all what I need and want, every day will serve as little steps toward the goal. That might mean saving for a bigger house, to rent work space, to rid myself of more unnecessary things and to always be reevaluating what is contributing to me and the family's goals.

So for now a walk will have to do. Because I need some space. You may need some space too. So do what you gotta do.

P.S. ... Lately, every few days we find something we don't "need" and throw it out. It has helped me feel better.

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